stepping ahead.....boldly!!!

well after that period of a low feeling and a sort of helplessness....i can feel the aroma of the soothing hands again....this time its something i never expected........

i never at any moment enjoyed my hostel life...neither i became comfortable nor i felt home like...

rather i felt like running somewhere from here.....!!

but now my superb buddies in the college hostel, though unintentionally..are helping me overcome all those low feelings...

the sleepless nights, the late night snack parties, exam preparations, 'paratha orders' and all sort of non sense that we do is actully making me feel great...!!

what should i say...i am a member of a dormitory where 5 other fantastic people live...a fun loving person who always keeps the mood light and sets a smile on everyone's face within a fraction of second; another one who by his pathetic songs irritates but still creates a nice atmosphere; one who stays in some other room and gives a guest appearance in the dormitory; one who has always been there with me...from day one in this city and is just like a younger brother to me; and last but not the least my dormi, my batchmate, my companion, a genuine gem of a person...that completes my dormeeezz!!!

as initially i used to feel a little uncomfortable staying in such a big room with so many people around , i used to go to one of my friend's room and used to stay there...today also i go to his room to sleep, a room which by norms is made for two but now this room no. 418 has started accommodating three in it... three of us form an ideal group of roomeez....one who is extremely hilarious..never serious even when he is not in sound health...his punjabi flavor in every dilog is something i will miss the most when we will depart; and the other in whom i find a replica of myself..a like minded person, similar in likings and also has faced many similar situations in life..truly in one word..he is a blessing!!!! and third...dats me..!!!(the best set of roomeezz ever possible)

now coming to the ground floor where u will usually find me lying in either room 101 or 116...these rooms comprise of some fantastic human beings...all vary extremely in their natures but as a whole are the people with whom i can forget my home for some time...room no. 116 has a two completely opposites creature...one whose hobby is sleeping...and....  ....   ...  .. sleeping ... .. and .. ... sleeping..!! i have hardly seen him doing anything else..specially nowadays...As far as i know him, he is a person who takes everything in a cool manner..the best way to face any sort of sitution...this is something which i admire the most in him; and his roomiee...a person who can always make is presence feel in just a fraction of second...the best person u can have when u want to forget your worries and truly want to enjoy the most enjoyable flavors of life..
coming to room no 101...a unique room no. so are the people inside the room....one who seriously hates the mosquitoes so much that u will always find him with an electric racket to burn...literally BURN the mosquitoes..yaa u might also find him with his laptop with facebook opened on it...a major fan of facebook he is...he is the one seeing whom i sometimes feel that i have an elder bro in my college also...
and last but not the least the gadget lover...always surrounded by laptop, ipod, cell phone, headphones...where the hell is space on his bed...ufff!!! i share a special connection with him...we both are of the same city...i love to irritate him the most and the best part is now he is also becoming addicted to it..!!

never imagined such a big gang of wonderful hostelers around me...love ya guyzz...and yaa thanks for being there with me alwayzz....!!!

this is for all of u my readers....dont feel lonely or punished when u lose someone or when someone departs for sometime...always remember...there is much more waiting for u...

the void that is created by the departure of your dear one can never be filled..nor someone can replace it...

but yaa seeing someone around you can always give u the strength to face the reality and begin the next chapter of life....

after all it is life....filled with different emotions...and to taste this special dish called life...u have to enjoy all the ingredients of it...even if they sometimes are sour..!!!

that is why i say....life is a blessing....!!!!!

heading towards a change from a change...

After a long gap i m here back with a new post...dis time there is no message to spread...
i thought i will not write any more...
but then i had to write coz
this one is for someone very close and special to me...!!!

first i would like to tell the meaning of the title..."heading towards a change from a change"
well...when i met him...it was the time when everything in my life had just changed...i suffered alot but he gave me myself back...now he is leaving..going away...so now again the life will change...a big change is waiting for me...
anyways i will now continue...

who could imagine in this short span of time we will become so close...
who could imagine that these 6 months will give a feeling as if i know him from 6 years...
who could imagine that after losing trust i will be able to trust someone all over again...
and also
who could imagine that this new superb beginning will soon end up as a separation...


my friends i will introduce u to a friend of mine.. who unknowingly returned me something or to be precise someone whom i was missing d most...

let me rewind the story to 6th months back...as i mentioned in my earlier blog dat i was very much scared and worried when i came here..finally i started with my college...it was my first day..new faces..little confused...too much excited...all were waiting to begin this new college phase of life..

It was July 21,2011..second day of the college...in the gap between two classes, we had a conversation in a group with a few batch-mates...then finally the long awaited up-gradation list came..i got the main campus....i was so very happy..after college got over and i was going back to my flat with my friends and then i saw him walking next to me...he was very happy... he told me that he was also up-graded in the main campus...both of us were feeling amazing...he asked me my aieee rank...i hesitated a bit den i said fourty-four thousand...he said he also got the same rank...the difference was just of some 200 ranks...
then continuing with the conversation i told him about my pg..in reply he told me where does he live and bla bla bla!!!
then moving ahead there was a small stall of creambell ice-cream...he ran there saying that he wants to eat an ice-cream...i couldn't understand its name...well that reminds me that i forgot his name immediately after he told me his name...
then he offered me a bite...i refused...cant imagine...how could i refuse an ice-cream...
then finally we departed..i went to my flat and he took some other transport to his house..



i joined the main campus after a few days as i went home for 2 days...
it was 8:30 in the morning when i reached the college...my class was suppose to begin from 9 o clock...
so i was waiting near the LRC(that is what we call the library of our college)..
suddenly i saw him coming from the entrance gate...he came to me...we met again...hii hello session...
forgot to ask the name...rather i should say i was feeling shy to ask..
class was about to start...in a hurry he took my cell number and gave me a missed call...
while i was about to save the number...i realized...NAME?
sounds weird but i saved the number by the name "mr. x"...!!!
then classes began...n then the break came...he gave me a call and called me in the mes to have lunch together..

This session of giving a call in the break..waiting for each other outside the LRC and then going together to the mes continued for about two weeks till the time i got my batch changed...
by now i got to know the name also...it was just by chance when a common friend said his name in front of me...
as i said i got my batch changed after two weeks...i did so as i felt that we were becoming good friends and also i wasn't having any friend in my batch till that time...
seriously...it was a good decision...batch changed...full time together...became friends...awesome friends...

Went his home several times...met his parents...never got a feeling that i don't belong to the family...they made me completely comfortable and now whenever i go...i get a good homely feeling...


Exams preparations...lol...the best part...before exam...i used to call him early in the morning to teach me in the college..he used to teach in d best way he could...and finally every time i used to get better marks than him...we used to have a gr8 laugh at this whenever the result of some subject used to come..


Many memorable occasions came...we shared them together...his bike came..we went together to choose it..get it registered..his licence(i had to bunk a class for it)...his birthday(i got three different treats on three different days by him)...shopping...and a lot more...

enjoyed every single moment of this time...even those stupid fights that we used to have on idiotic issues...

i wanted to enjoy the city to the most and it happened just becoz of him...
i saw almost the complete city sitting beside...went to all the different malls...we had certain special places where we used to go quite often like haldirams, dominos, street chaat, juice and many more...
he helped me as a true friend whenever i needed him...
let it be the day i had to buy books when he took me to the market in heavy rain...
or the day when i had to attend the marriage of my cousin...
or d day i had to go to the station to board my train...
or recently two days back when i had to buy a sim for myself...
i found him every-time standing nearby...
i felt really lonely with 10 other people on my bday when u were not there...


now when i think about all this...cant believe that this short span of time with u gave me happiness of a lifetime....
who says the strength of the friendship depends on the time factor as in the age of the friendship...
i don't agree...it couldn't have been better in my case...we shared the best way it could have been...

i had to say many things but i m getting short of words...
would summarize in a few lines just by saying that..

now that u r going i just wanna say...


You have always been very special
And will continue to be
Though we are not together any more
But still the togetherness will always be


Whenever u need me
You will always find me around
Don't forget my friend
That this is what my friendship is all about


We had some little disputes a few times
But today i would just like to say
I m sorry from the bottom of my heart
If u got hurt by me any day
I hope u understand
I never meant it that way


Now distances will prevail between us
So my friend,give me a promise for this
That the physical distance will not affect our relation
And it will continue in the same way as it is!!!


Thanks for the beautiful gift of your friendship.......