stepping ahead.....boldly!!!

well after that period of a low feeling and a sort of helplessness....i can feel the aroma of the soothing hands again....this time its something i never expected........

i never at any moment enjoyed my hostel life...neither i became comfortable nor i felt home like...

rather i felt like running somewhere from here.....!!

but now my superb buddies in the college hostel, though unintentionally..are helping me overcome all those low feelings...

the sleepless nights, the late night snack parties, exam preparations, 'paratha orders' and all sort of non sense that we do is actully making me feel great...!!

what should i say...i am a member of a dormitory where 5 other fantastic people live...a fun loving person who always keeps the mood light and sets a smile on everyone's face within a fraction of second; another one who by his pathetic songs irritates but still creates a nice atmosphere; one who stays in some other room and gives a guest appearance in the dormitory; one who has always been there with me...from day one in this city and is just like a younger brother to me; and last but not the least my dormi, my batchmate, my companion, a genuine gem of a person...that completes my dormeeezz!!!

as initially i used to feel a little uncomfortable staying in such a big room with so many people around , i used to go to one of my friend's room and used to stay there...today also i go to his room to sleep, a room which by norms is made for two but now this room no. 418 has started accommodating three in it... three of us form an ideal group of roomeez....one who is extremely hilarious..never serious even when he is not in sound health...his punjabi flavor in every dilog is something i will miss the most when we will depart; and the other in whom i find a replica of myself..a like minded person, similar in likings and also has faced many similar situations in life..truly in one word..he is a blessing!!!! and third...dats me..!!!(the best set of roomeezz ever possible)

now coming to the ground floor where u will usually find me lying in either room 101 or 116...these rooms comprise of some fantastic human beings...all vary extremely in their natures but as a whole are the people with whom i can forget my home for some time...room no. 116 has a two completely opposites creature...one whose hobby is sleeping...and....  ....   ...  .. sleeping ... .. and .. ... sleeping..!! i have hardly seen him doing anything else..specially nowadays...As far as i know him, he is a person who takes everything in a cool manner..the best way to face any sort of sitution...this is something which i admire the most in him; and his roomiee...a person who can always make is presence feel in just a fraction of second...the best person u can have when u want to forget your worries and truly want to enjoy the most enjoyable flavors of life..
coming to room no 101...a unique room no. so are the people inside the room....one who seriously hates the mosquitoes so much that u will always find him with an electric racket to burn...literally BURN the mosquitoes..yaa u might also find him with his laptop with facebook opened on it...a major fan of facebook he is...he is the one seeing whom i sometimes feel that i have an elder bro in my college also...
and last but not the least the gadget lover...always surrounded by laptop, ipod, cell phone, headphones...where the hell is space on his bed...ufff!!! i share a special connection with him...we both are of the same city...i love to irritate him the most and the best part is now he is also becoming addicted to it..!!

never imagined such a big gang of wonderful hostelers around me...love ya guyzz...and yaa thanks for being there with me alwayzz....!!!

this is for all of u my readers....dont feel lonely or punished when u lose someone or when someone departs for sometime...always remember...there is much more waiting for u...

the void that is created by the departure of your dear one can never be filled..nor someone can replace it...

but yaa seeing someone around you can always give u the strength to face the reality and begin the next chapter of life....

after all it is life....filled with different emotions...and to taste this special dish called life...u have to enjoy all the ingredients of it...even if they sometimes are sour..!!!

that is why i say....life is a blessing....!!!!!

heading towards a change from a change...

After a long gap i m here back with a new post...dis time there is no message to spread...
i thought i will not write any more...
but then i had to write coz
this one is for someone very close and special to me...!!!

first i would like to tell the meaning of the title..."heading towards a change from a change"
well...when i met him...it was the time when everything in my life had just changed...i suffered alot but he gave me myself back...now he is leaving..going away...so now again the life will change...a big change is waiting for me...
anyways i will now continue...

who could imagine in this short span of time we will become so close...
who could imagine that these 6 months will give a feeling as if i know him from 6 years...
who could imagine that after losing trust i will be able to trust someone all over again...
and also
who could imagine that this new superb beginning will soon end up as a separation...


my friends i will introduce u to a friend of mine.. who unknowingly returned me something or to be precise someone whom i was missing d most...

let me rewind the story to 6th months back...as i mentioned in my earlier blog dat i was very much scared and worried when i came here..finally i started with my college...it was my first day..new faces..little confused...too much excited...all were waiting to begin this new college phase of life..

It was July 21,2011..second day of the college...in the gap between two classes, we had a conversation in a group with a few batch-mates...then finally the long awaited up-gradation list came..i got the main campus....i was so very happy..after college got over and i was going back to my flat with my friends and then i saw him walking next to me...he was very happy... he told me that he was also up-graded in the main campus...both of us were feeling amazing...he asked me my aieee rank...i hesitated a bit den i said fourty-four thousand...he said he also got the same rank...the difference was just of some 200 ranks...
then continuing with the conversation i told him about my pg..in reply he told me where does he live and bla bla bla!!!
then moving ahead there was a small stall of creambell ice-cream...he ran there saying that he wants to eat an ice-cream...i couldn't understand its name...well that reminds me that i forgot his name immediately after he told me his name...
then he offered me a bite...i refused...cant imagine...how could i refuse an ice-cream...
then finally we departed..i went to my flat and he took some other transport to his house..



i joined the main campus after a few days as i went home for 2 days...
it was 8:30 in the morning when i reached the college...my class was suppose to begin from 9 o clock...
so i was waiting near the LRC(that is what we call the library of our college)..
suddenly i saw him coming from the entrance gate...he came to me...we met again...hii hello session...
forgot to ask the name...rather i should say i was feeling shy to ask..
class was about to start...in a hurry he took my cell number and gave me a missed call...
while i was about to save the number...i realized...NAME?
sounds weird but i saved the number by the name "mr. x"...!!!
then classes began...n then the break came...he gave me a call and called me in the mes to have lunch together..

This session of giving a call in the break..waiting for each other outside the LRC and then going together to the mes continued for about two weeks till the time i got my batch changed...
by now i got to know the name also...it was just by chance when a common friend said his name in front of me...
as i said i got my batch changed after two weeks...i did so as i felt that we were becoming good friends and also i wasn't having any friend in my batch till that time...
seriously...it was a good decision...batch changed...full time together...became friends...awesome friends...

Went his home several times...met his parents...never got a feeling that i don't belong to the family...they made me completely comfortable and now whenever i go...i get a good homely feeling...


Exams preparations...lol...the best part...before exam...i used to call him early in the morning to teach me in the college..he used to teach in d best way he could...and finally every time i used to get better marks than him...we used to have a gr8 laugh at this whenever the result of some subject used to come..


Many memorable occasions came...we shared them together...his bike came..we went together to choose it..get it registered..his licence(i had to bunk a class for it)...his birthday(i got three different treats on three different days by him)...shopping...and a lot more...

enjoyed every single moment of this time...even those stupid fights that we used to have on idiotic issues...

i wanted to enjoy the city to the most and it happened just becoz of him...
i saw almost the complete city sitting beside...went to all the different malls...we had certain special places where we used to go quite often like haldirams, dominos, street chaat, juice and many more...
he helped me as a true friend whenever i needed him...
let it be the day i had to buy books when he took me to the market in heavy rain...
or the day when i had to attend the marriage of my cousin...
or d day i had to go to the station to board my train...
or recently two days back when i had to buy a sim for myself...
i found him every-time standing nearby...
i felt really lonely with 10 other people on my bday when u were not there...


now when i think about all this...cant believe that this short span of time with u gave me happiness of a lifetime....
who says the strength of the friendship depends on the time factor as in the age of the friendship...
i don't agree...it couldn't have been better in my case...we shared the best way it could have been...

i had to say many things but i m getting short of words...
would summarize in a few lines just by saying that..

now that u r going i just wanna say...


You have always been very special
And will continue to be
Though we are not together any more
But still the togetherness will always be


Whenever u need me
You will always find me around
Don't forget my friend
That this is what my friendship is all about


We had some little disputes a few times
But today i would just like to say
I m sorry from the bottom of my heart
If u got hurt by me any day
I hope u understand
I never meant it that way


Now distances will prevail between us
So my friend,give me a promise for this
That the physical distance will not affect our relation
And it will continue in the same way as it is!!!


Thanks for the beautiful gift of your friendship.......

there is something good in it.........

Well…..now I hav bcum a college student and dis is my first blog after dat…friends..many of us have faced or will face very soon all dose basic problems…while leaving my city I was so damn scared about how will I  manage wen I will go to a new city, wen I will live wid new people around me 24/7….new hostel/pg, college life, ragging etc etc etc……

Well…generally in such conditions we tend to feel lonely and forget dat "dat supreme power" is alway dere wid us...it can never let happen anything bad wid us bcoz we r good and we can do nothing wrong to oders…!!!! the difficulties dat we face in our lives are not any kind of problems...dey r simply created by god to teach us something or simply make us strong enough to face dis world...!!!!


we often generally say dat dis world is so harsh...people are mean and dey care for nobody at all and bla bla bla....once one of my friend said to me dat nothing is difficult or complex in our life…everything around us is so very simple and easy….its just d matter of our perception..this is so true....d more we like d world and d people around us...more and more special dey become and make our lives comfortable...al we need to do is to build a positive approach to lead life and to change our perceptions...!!!!

Now…after experiencing each and every bit of wat my friend said dat time i can surely say dat all of dis is so very true..!!! i agree…nothing around us is difficult…just close ur eyes and think sumthing nice…a beautiful, refreshing feeling comes from inside and makes it all good…god is always wid us…watevr dat is suppose to happen will happen and none of us can do nything bout it..dis is d truth of life..all we can do is live d moment, enjoy d moment, b happy and spread happiness around us…we r good…all of us r good…how can god do anything wrong wid us.. dis is my belief and dis gives me strength in dis new place and between dese people..

Wen I came here I didn’t have any kind of proper accommodation to live….god gave me 1 wich was so very good and much above my expectation….i wanted good peer group so dat I can b comfortable….and immediately four sweet and caring friends came to me and became integral part of me... even if ever I cud think dat I will make friends in dis city,  I cud nevr imagine them and dat too in such a short period of  tym….dey made me realize dat friendship doesn’t  get stonger by time lapse or no. of years of friendship, it gets close by the kind of love, comfort and respect dey share wid each oder….

I was not very satisfied wid my college wen I joined here coz it was d extended campus of d main college which was just two years old and was under construction…I wished to have the main campus…god blessed me wid dat as well….i have been upgraded to d main campus….

Now I had to shift near to my new college..i had to shift from my current flat…I had to leave my so very good friends here….dey gave me a farewell by ordering pizzas from dominos…such kind of love and affection, I cud nevr think of while I was leaving my city….

now after joining d new college i have been able to make my new friends again....dey were also upgraded wid me from d extended campus....wen i was supposed to take a new place to stay near to my new college...my same old friend wid whom i was sharing my room in d previous flat also got upgraded and finally we are back again 2gedr....i hav no more wishes...by god's blessing i have got evrything watevr i wanted and got much more dan wat i deserved...

Its difficult to believe dat it has been just three weeks wen I came here…I got everything I desired so quickly and so easily….it was just d perception of life….d more u perceive it to b simple...d more simple it bcums…we just need to have faith in ourselves and d almighty who is always dere 4 us and always remember dat he can never do wrong wid us bcoz we r good and we can do nothing wrong to others…!!!!

"LIFE is only travelled ONCE...Today's MOMENT becomes TOMORROW'S MEMORY...Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the GIFT of LIFE is the LIFE itself"

thank you friend.....

Exclusively for my myau……..

Well….I promised her dat my next blog will be dedicated to her….i have been writing dis from so long but wasn’t able to really write d way I wanted to…it was truly difficult for me to give my feelings words and put dem down here…..

We met each other around 12 yrs back...we became friends 4 yrs back…and our ordinary friendship became a very sweet and special one in dis previous year….

What can I say bout her…she is different from all d friends I have…sometimes she used to behave like a child who was very innocent, sometimes like such a matured person in front of whom I used to feel child like…sometimes she was d best companion to have fun wid.. and yaa.. most of d tym she was d best  material to make fun of…sorry bout writing dis…but dis is d most special thing bout u!!!!

She was an assembly of many friends in one…an elder caring sister, a sweet little innocent girl and my best friend…

To say in short god gifted me an angel wrapped in d frame of a beautiful friend…a friend who changed me in such a short period of time.. she made me strong and courageous so that I can face d difficulties which were dere lying in front of me.. she was so patient dat she could listen to d complete package of my never ending problems so calmly…her words meant so much to me dat I can’t express…I was  so lonely when you held me… u never made me feel detached under any circumstance, never left me knowing bout my mistakes, knowing dat I was wrong…u helped me recover else I would have shattered….

Now dat u r not here I really miss you but yaaa.. this tym I m not disheartened coz u have taught me to enjoy life under any damn bad situation.. u always told me dat I shud learn from u how to b always happy.. and finally now I think I can remain happy in all odds….thanks a lot!!! I noe god will never do anything wrong wid me coz  I love everyone around me…

Though u r not here wid me…I noe we will always b together and our friendship will continue throughout our lives…!!!

Thank u my angel!!!

Dis one is just 4 u from ur mouse!!!!! 

a step ahead to know wats lyf.....

hello frnzz... i know its a tough tym wich v all r facing ryt nw... wat shud v do??...everything seems to b depressing and many of us have lost hopes... well frnz once one of my frnd said something 2 me wich i wud lyk 2 share wid u all... she said nothing is difficult around us...it depends only on our perception, whatever v get in lyf is wat v actually want 4 us....nd ya whatever happens, dere is actually sumthing gud hidden behind it wich v don't realise d very same tym.....i know it sounds lyk a lecture bt its actually true...i experienced it...ll share it wid u.....

once around 50 days back wen it was regularly raining for 3-4 days i was standing in d balcony of my room enjoying d rain...i noticed something...my 2 wheeler was parked outside my house and bcoz of d rain all d mud on it god wiped away....dis incident made me remember my very gud frnd who always used to comment on my vehicle coz it always used 2 b dirty..!!
after dat i was having a walk in d colony. all of a sudden a car passed rushingly beside me...due to dis all d muddy water on d road splashed on me nd i got dirty.....dis happened b4 also wid me and my same frnd.....i remembered him again.. i seriously wanted just 2 c him dat day...we had a fight so meeting him was nearly impossible....den later while i was returning home i noticed 3 of my frnz vehicle parked outside my neighbour's house who is also a frnd.....and as soon as i crossed his house, my same frnd got a phone call and he came out of d house to attend it...i saw him, i waved him hii....he had a smile..i also had it...i turned back and went 2 my home having a different kind of feeling inside me....

well friends dis seems to b a co-incidence and a very simple thing to many people..bt 4 me its not...dat day i realised dat i just wished to c him and i saw him...three of my frnds were present dere, ny of dem cud have got a call bt god made me meet d 1 i wanted to....dese things actually go unnoticed in our day to day lyf...if we dint have a fight, probably i also wouldn't have realised dis....
lyf is truly a blessing....everything about it is made to luv...we shud always b full of hope...we shud pray but not demand....we shud expect bt shudnt get hurt if d odr person doesn't fulfill our expectation...dis is something i have finally learnt...
every moment has a meaning...we shud realise dat and always be happy and try 2 make others happy....
dere is a saying by Charlie Chaplin, "life laughs at u wen u r unhappy, lyf smiles at u wen u r happy but lyf salutes u wen u make oders happy...."
so always spread happiness and enjoy d life as it cums!!! :-)

the beginning......

well.......finally i thought to write sumthing, so here i am....i m here to share my thoughts wid my dear ones.....dis is to make dem aware how special dey are.....!! well friends...dis is sumthing really true dat life is a blessing given to us by dat super power...he has send his agents into our lives so dat we can find life worth living, enjoying and a place to be happy....and according to me, more precisely we can name dese agents as FRIENDSSSSSSSS!!! they are the companions, they make us feel special and dat makes it our responsibility to never let them feel unpleasant....

we all make friends...sum becum dearest..sum becum special...felt in love wid sum1....sum left us.....we left sum....sum remain in contact while sum dont...sumtyms dey show ego...sum tyms we show tooo...watever..however dey are..we still remember dem...
we MISS dem coz of d part dey played in our lives....dey left us wid sum beautiful immortal memories...dese memories are a thing of beauty in my life....
so never let ur buddies go far away from u....!!

dis is for all of u guyzz...thank u ol for everything and sorry to d ones who got hurt by me!!!!